The excitement

I mentioned in the last post isn't a good excitement.

I've gotten over my hurt feelings.  I was pretty pissed for a day but got over it and things are back to normal with us.  I had a talk with my co-worker and it wasn't the person I thought it was who told - it was someone else altogether!  And it was only because she wanted to do what I was helping out with, so she told them I didn't need to do it and to continue would make me stressed, overworked, and burned out.  So not true.  I'm a bit high strung - but that is what keeps me going at work.  I think the more I have to do, the harder I work to get it done.  But if I don't have a lot to do then I it harder to keep on task.  Like now.  I'm blogging instead of working.

While things are back to normal between me and my two coworkers, things are NOT back to normal at work.  And it will be a very long time before things are normal.  I want this whole thing over and done with.  I want what happened to get out in the open so that we can start to heal - because there is a lot of hurt and anger here in this office.  Disbelief that it would happen.  Anger that innocent people were blamed (good thing no one believed that for a minute).  Anger about all the lies.  Hurt that our friend would do this.

There are so many emotions going on right now.  And although I've probably got anyone who reads this curious about what is going on, I can't talk about it right now.  Maybe tomorrow.  Hopefully tomorrow.