Exhausted

If I had to describe how I feel in one word, it would be exhausted.

I have never felt this way in my life!  When I was pregnant, my biggest complaint was being so, so, so very tired.  But this is a different feeling.  For the last few months, it has been getting worse.  I have no energy to do anything.  I wake up in the morning and I'm still tired!  I am yawning from the get-go.  I don't want to do anything but lounge around and relax!

I finally had enough of the exhaustion, the hot flashes (if these ain't hot flashed, then I'm in big trouble later on in life!) and being hot all the time, the headaches, the achy body, the feeling of a ten pound weight being on my chest when I lay down and the wicky-wacky heartbeat.  I went to the doctor thinking that my thyroid might be messed up.  Heaven knows our family has more than a few members with thyroid problems!  Nope.  That wasn't it. 

My doctor told me that my depression/anxiety must not be under control like we thought.  And I have acid reflux (who knew?  I thought that involved burning sensations).  I wanted to tell him he was off his rocker about the depression.  But thought that he would know best.  I thought my depression/anxiety was just fine!  Sure, I'd get anxious going in to work - but that has been a normal part of my life for the past few years.

So I got a new prescription and had hope that things would get better. 

That was Monday.

Friday morning was fantastic!  I had so much energy.  I cleaned the kitchen, swept and mopped the floor, and did some laundry.  I was thrilled!

Then noon hit and I crashed.  Exhausted.  I am back to being so tired and achy.  I drag my butt out of bed around 6 am and am back to pulling my hair back most days so you don't know it is wet.  It feels like I have the start of the flu - it comes and goes so I know it isn't the flu.  I get headaches and I'm miserable!

(And don't tell me I'd feel better if I exercised.  And don't tell me it is because I'm overweight.  Just ask Tim.  I don't take kindly to that.)

Maybe one of these days I'll feel normal again!