Peace

I have had such a struggle this week.  I never did talk to my neighbor about the boys.  I did let her know that after talking with Sterling, I felt it was best that the boys stay away from each other for a while.  I also wasn't too nice and let her know that Brandon had been rude to Sterling that day and that I told Ster to leave Brandon alone and not egg him on.  The response I got back was that Brandon told her a different story.  Hmmm.

I was worried about how things would be between Tina and I.  I admit that I was really hurt by her calling Sterling very selfish.  I know he can be, but I also know he can be very giving.  I didn't want to avoid her or try to hide from her.  I was almost as scared of her as Sterling is!  He doesn't want to go near her because he thinks she is going to start chewing him out again.  But after our exchanges, I was afraid of how things would be for us.

At church, she came up and gave me a big hug saying that we were both hermits and needed to get together.

I was quite shocked.  Maybe it is because I am still trying to let go of the insult and she already has.  Just another reminder that I need to be more Christ-like.  I had been working through my feelings and trying to let the hurt go.

I went to the Temple on Friday.  I have missed many opportunities the past few years in which to receive the wonderful blessings that come from going to the Temple.  I forgot how peaceful it can be.  How when I'm in the Temple, the weight of my worldly troubles are eased.  For the first time in months, my anxiety level was tolerable.  I didn't stress over every little thing.  I didn't feel anxious over every little thing.  I could breathe easy and felt peace.